iT's liKe ButterfLies iN mY stomach..oNLy aDD iN a pressuRe collapsing mY chesT from both sides into the middle and mY hearT wiTh a duL ache thaT saYs jusT stoP beaTing iT isn'T worth iT aNymoRe==== i'Ve seeN Everything worthWhiLe  aNd doNe aLL thaT neeDs to bE doNe....

ThaT FeeLing wheN you aRe iN the 4th oR 5th GraDe aNd haVe to reciTe the whoLe Gettyburg Address froM MemoRy...
ThaT's whaT it'S liKe thinKinG abouT heR beinG goNe hOMe tO Be wiTh JESUS...
YeaH i'LL haVe the HoLy_SpiriT---saMe aS i dO nOW... buT i wiLL NeVer LooKk intO heR eYeS agaiN AND she wiLL neVer LooK aT mE aNd saY yoU LooK verY HandsOMe,  BiLL.........

iT haS cOMe doWn to thiS.......
aNd i wanT jusT oNe moRe daY====
shE iS iN sO Much PaiN
she caN noT thinK liKe she useD to...
She stiLL haS 100% thought processes wheN i talK to heR aNd asK soMething/anYthinG==
buT the resT oF the tiMe iS jusT spenT thinking about breathing aNd trying not to moVe because the pain is so intense...